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Some say that when one writes a memoir, they are about to die. But for me, it is a proud exaltation of how God works in my life and guided me through the long and winding road. These experiences, sad or happy, helped me manage the life I am enjoying now. Whatever that happen or failed to happen in my life all has its end results and I am very thankful to God for allowing me to experience all of these for it made me a stronger person: physically, emotionally and spiritually. The events are summarized in random order…..

-I escorted the Crown Prince and Princess of Japan during their visit to Manila. The 1^st line that I uttered whilst inside the elevator was, “Have you already watched Titanic?”

-Hours of bicycle ride at PICC with my family. Long walks at Manila Bay when it was still clean. Picnic or watching a movie at Avenida or Cubao with my parents and siblings.

-I was chosen as 1 of the 3 guys to give flowers in the Premiere/ Gala Night of Miss Saigon in CCP

-LOL with Cathy and Lino (ex-SBC colleagues) during pangmayaman kuno forced b-day dinner treats, comedy bar and Starbucks coffee raids.

- Each time my besty has to stand up for me, because she is my shock and tantrums absorber. I will never forget the endless exploration of new restos in tinseltown, clumsiness, picture taking, posing, favors and the last time she went with me to the airport while sobbing at the gate =(

-Outreach and Bible giving at slumdog provincial areas. Natives seem to welcome us like celebrities or dignataries but we condone such treatment since we went there to serve them and let them know more about God.

-I received several Good to Great awards in HSBC while I was still a Credit Analyst. It was given by Warner Manning (CEO) to staffs who contributed ideas feasible to the Bank’s growth. I was brimming with pride in front of my envious detractors.

- Showdown with my buddies Ej, Cris, Romy, Than, Nad, Jaz, Betong, Larry, Den, etc. at the Music Lounge in Jupiter St. as part of my despidida. Ukay-ukay of my earthly belongings was held afterwards, haha!

-First LRT ride with my family. It was new and Mom can still see every destination where it stops. We went to Luneta after a memorable joyride.

-Amidst the hot rays of the sun, a dark cloud envelopes the sky and heavy rain pours dripping down on our fatigue while we are waiting for our CAT graduation march. Last man standing!

- No classes after every UAAP season when UST was the champion for 4 straight years! Endless tiangges and non-stop celebration filled the campus from South Border, Regine and Lani M. concerts to Eat Bulaga Live in UST!

-I won the top prize twice in HSBC-CSV Department because I was one of its Top 10 CSO’s.

-I was voted as Chairman for the CCP Summer Campout 2004 with 100+ members. It was controversial at that time for we were intrigued to be spearheading a “rebellion” against the Management. The camp-out was an ultimate success because of several sponsorships that we were able to gather and it is the only outing in CCP history without any manager in tow.

-My longest People Power 2 march from Edsa Shrine to Plaza Miranda which ousted then Pres. Estrada. I don’t have any political inclination at that time. I just went with my friends on a dare to walk the line!

-Laughing with my all-time fave boss, Ma’am Hilda of Security Bank Avenida. She is so down to earth and a real teaser. I visited her after so many years, a few weeks before I left for UAE. She is just overjoyed to see me reaping success after some hardships.

- Endless Laguna weekend swimming night-outs with my Tanging Yaman gang because we were so filthy rich due to Miss Saigon’s 6 months run at CCP. Charades, taya-tayaan, laughing out loud, etc. made the bonding so tight until now. It has also produced 6 marriages. By the way, I have 2 jobs at that time so I’m always the Master Showman on all these escapades!

-My 1^st qualification in the annual songfest in high school, it was really unexpected!

-When I handled the post Christmas party for HSBC CSO. It was the 1^st time that the Managers, Seniors and Newbies ever mingled which turned out to be a fun filled night. Thanks to my partygoing days!

-Back-to-back win as Male Star of the Night for CCP and NAIA for year 2000!

-My first and last foam party at my fave bar in Eastwood Libis, BASEMENT, with Than.

-When I escorted Miriam Quiambao and a hot Brazilian Miss Universe runner-up on their way up the stage for an evening event. It was televised on Channel 9, ever heard of it?!?

-When I rubbed elbows and take pictures with my tennis idols: Nadal, Federer, Murray, Roddick, etc. It was not planned since we were held at the entrance by a horrible Indian guard coz my roomate has no ticket yet. Then here comes the tennis stars one by one entering the VIP gate. We immediately run up to them since we’re the only peeps in the vicinity and the rest is history. We were screaming and jumping like nutheads to our heart’s delight. (It would have been complete if Novak was also there).  Too much adrenaline shoots up in my head that it made me feel like I’m about to throw up. I just couldn’t believe what happened, it was like a figment of my hallucinations or daydreaming!

-Dancing for the Christmas presentation at church when I was just 9 years old. I was wearing my already skimpy school uniform and it was freezing cold at that time!

-Another Christmas event at our fellowship where I was chosen to play the lead role of Joseph.

-Back in college, in one of our Sociology activities, we were asked to go to a rehabilitation center at the South wherein we interacted with recovering drug addicts. We were also allowed to test marijuana by our professor inside a rehab room as part of our simulation so we could discover its bad effects. Lucky for me, I hated it immediately the moment it touched my lips.

- I saw my body below me while I was (asleep) levitating to my room’s ceiling. It happened more than once and I was unconscious whenever I experienced astral projection. And when I woke up, I felt so tired.

-When Mom used to treat me to Jollibee after we visit my Dad at work. God knows how I miss those times when she still has her 20/20 vision.

-I almost puked during a banana eating contest (Christmas party) in Grade 5.

-When I have to go down a steep hill because of a dare from my cousins.

-Mom used to sell RTW, jewelries, cold cuts, beauty products, etc. when we were still in college just so we will have our allowances. God knows how I pity her condition but despite her being handicapped, she was able to send us to school and finish college. Now it’s payback time for me!

-My best Christmas family reunion (2003 & 2004) in Baguio and Subic, everybody was there!

-When I went to Singapore, my 1^st travel abroad with my then besty. It was a wacky combination in an exhilarating experience. I was shouting at her all the time for being so Pasaway! We found a hotel in the red district area of the city, we commute without any idea where are we going, we shop till we drop, and we never tasted pepper crab. One night, I left her in the street because she have no idea what time it is that she have kept me waiting for hours, so when she arrived at our hotel, she was so furious that I just laughed at her clumsiness. Our local classmates are so corny and we cannot find any reason why they laugh at such silly jokes. Lastly, before we entered the airplane for departure, she dropped the hot tea at the gate connecting to the plane’s door, what a funny sight!

-When I left for work abroad, I cried a river because I have to leave my Mom.

-Tagaytay trip with my ex-girlfriend and gang in tow, it was a total riot!

-Dancing to Bob Sinclair’s “Love Generation” in Puerto Galera with my close buddies. We were so drunk that time and we hardly know what we were doing at the dance floor. I held a guy by his collar for kissing my gf in the face and when I was about to punch him, someone stopped me. Sayang!

- When I shot the wire holding all the bottles during a target shooting exercise at Taytay.

- As a CSO for HSBC, I invented some “sales” line/scripts that were immediately copied by my colleagues even if it sounds unprofessional because it consistently puts me ahead of the pack.

-When Dad used to send us new toys from KSA, making us the envy of our playmates in the hood.

-Front row VIP pass in Mariah Carey, Boyz 2 Men, F4, Janet Jackson, Boyzone, 98 Degrees, Jordan Knight, Alanis Morissette, and Christina Aguilera concerts. I could almost kiss their ass! Hahaha!

-Without my formal acknowledgment, I was appointed as a Union Officer of HSBC- the World’s Local Bank, after the successful campaign of my party in 2007! It was really great to savor the taste of success after a hard day’s night of intrigues and endless backstabbing over the campaign period.

-The 1^st time I joined a charity event for Asilo. Sponsored by HBILU, it was really great to mingle and share blessings with less fortunate kids. It was something that I thank God up to now for giving me a normal life after all the trials I have been to.

-Dad died last 1993 when I was about to graduate from high school. I can’t imagine what the future has in store for my family especially that I’m the eldest and my Mom is blind. Fortunately, it was not hard for me to find jobs after I graduated from college. Everything seems to be easy for me during exams and interviews. Maybe, Papa was guiding me while I’m answering the test papers. I’m now the breadwinner and thank God for blessing me with better paying jobs.

- When “So Sick” (Ne-yo) becomes “So Bad” because our stupid secretary printed the wrong lyrics and I was so ashamed because Radha ( of Kulay rap trio) is backing me up. Grrrrrrrr!

-I took the stage with revenge the following night when I sung  “The Last Time” by Eric Benet, accompanied by the band called Raintree. It became Felix fave after hearing my version.

-My first hair raising Space Shuttle and Anchor’s Away ride in Enchanted Kingdom. I was screaming my lungs out like a banshee, a rare feat for an acrophobic like me!

-Graduation in high school, all my relatives were there to support and cheer me up because Dad was already in heaven.

-I just have my molar teeth extracted, but after only a few hours I’m riding the motorbike like a Ghost Rider!

- Baguio outing with my new acquaintances. We hardly know each other but the vacation was a blast especially when we have our dinner by the fireplace and after my first gimmick in Nevada.

- Bivouac in high school. After the officers let us sleep on the top of the hill, they woke us, ordered us to line-up and march down to our camp with nothing but our undies on!

-My last ROTC training in Taytay Rizal wherein I was able to hike towards our campsite carrying my heavy backpack, wearing my fatigue and combat shoes for a couple of hours. We went up the hill until there is zero visibility due to heavy fog. It was like I’m in heaven!

-Rappel down the mountain for my CAT training. War games at night. Ghost stories at midnight.

-I have a crush on Shannen Daugherty and Jennie Garth of Beverly Hills 90210. When they sang “Breaking up is hard to do” on one of the show’s episode, they were so wickedly sleek!

-Wall climbing in an HSBC event. I have to help Giete because she is so scared to rappel down!

- Singing for my Department Head at HSBC on his farewell party. Almost everyone was singing with me as I belted out a Take That original “Back for Good”. It became a song of the month for some CCR peeps.

-When I auditioned over the phone for CSO Idol. Everyone in the department heard my voice and I qualified. Unfortunately, I was about to leave for abroad therefore I can’t join the Grand Finals.

-Landing in UAE for my new job, I was culture shocked and cannot fathom how long I am going to stay in this country. But now, here I am enjoying every single minute of it!

……. And it doesn’t end there, it just keeps getting better!

Panasonic is pleased to introduce the DMC-LX3, the long-awaited addition to the popular Lumix LX series of high-end, compact digital still cameras.

Designed for easy, creative shooting, the new LX3 comes two years after its predecessor, the LX2, which earned an enthusiastic following among both professional photographers and serious amateurs for its exquisite image rendering, superior operating ease, and unique triple-wide system comprising wide-angle lens, 16:9 CCD and LCD. Panasonic has gone a big step further in the new LX3, upgrading every component to achieve a camera whose performance surpasses that of any compact camera that has come before. Simply put, the LX3 smashes all previous perceptions about the limitations of a digital compact camera, setting a lofty new standard in performance, quality and creative capabilities.

At the core of the LX3 is a large, ultra-sensitive 1/1.63-inch CCD developed specially for the new model. The old formula equating pixel count with image quality does not always hold true. In general, if two CCDs have exactly the same physical size but different pixel counts, the one with more pixels is not necessarily better – in fact, it’s likely to generate more picture noise, especially in low-light parts of the image. This poor low-light image quality has been a source of great dissatisfaction for compact camera users. In the LX3, Panasonic responds to this problem by boldly reversing the industry trend of pushing toward ever-higher pixel counts. Rather than cramming in the maximum number of pixels possible, it has limited the LX3’s 1/1.63-inch CCD to 10.1 megapixels. The result is a CCD that provides a generous amount of space for each pixel while offering superb sensitivity and a wide dynamic range made possible by maximizing the size of the photodiode. Panasonic also redesigned the peripheral circuits and other components to further minimize noise generation. These enhancements greatly improve imaging performance, boosting both sensitivity and saturation by around 40% compared with ordinary 10-mexapixel compact cameras.* The CCD in DMC-LX3 can reproduce images shot with the lens set from 24mm to 60mm in any of three aspect ratios; 4:3, 3:2 or 16:9, so you can always capture dynamic, richly expressive shots with a wide perspective. The newly added Multi-aspect bracketing mode allows the camera to take a image in all 3 aspect ratios simultaneously, allowing the photographer to choose the one that best takes the advantage of the scene after shooting.

The LX3’s F2.0 24mm ultra-wide-angle* LEICA DC VARIO-SUMMICRON lens also represents a major step up from the LX2. The F2.0 lens is about twice as bright as the previous F2.8 lens, itself generally considered a bright lens. With the new F2.0 lens, the LX3 can shoot at higher shutter speeds and capture stunningly clear, sharp, blur-free images even in lower lighting conditions. This advanced lens also makes it easy to produce beautiful photos with a pleasing soft-focused background. Also, the 24mm ultra-wide-angle lens – rare on a compact camera – gives photographers a wider range of composition possibilities. The super-high-quality LEICA DC VARIO-SUMMICRON lens minimises distortion even at the wide end, so users can get stunning, true-to-life images with outstanding resolution and detail.

The LX3 is equipped with Panasonic’s advanced image processing LSI, the Venus Engine IV. This high-speed high-performance imaging engine makes it possible to capture clean, beautiful, low-noise photos even when shooting at high sensitivity settings. Separating chromatic noise from luminance noise and low-frequency noise from high-frequency noise, and applying the optimal noise-reduction processing to each, the Venus Engine IV provides superior noise control and minimization of colour bleeding.

The LX3 is packed with features that enhance photo-shooting fun, ease of use and creativity. An easy-to-use Manual mode gives the user greater shot-making flexibility and control – ideal for those who want to explore the creative side of photography. The auto focus function lets the user select the number of auto focus points in the frame by pressing a button on the camera top. Pressing the same button after taking the shot enlarges the area surrounding the point of focus, giving the user a convenient way to check the focusing accuracy. The LX3’s customized setting function lets the user assign functions to an independent button on the camera back. In addition, up to 4 settings can be stored in memory and instantly retrieved using the Mode dial. The colour temperature can be set when adjusting the white balance, which works with the conventional 2-axis compensation to allow even finer adjustment.

The LX3 offers a Film mode with 6 colour types and 3 types of monochrome to choose from. Much like selecting different film types with a film camera, this function gives the user the flexibility to produce more interesting and expressive images. A newly added multiple-exposure function also lets the user create artistic photo productions, overlaying up to three consecutive images while viewing the most recent image in the monitor.

The LX3 boasts a large 3.0-inch LCD with a 3:2 aspect ratio and high 460,000-dot resolution. Performance is outstanding for both shooting and viewing. A new LCD panel provides bright, easy-to-see images over a wider viewing angle. The Intelligent LCD function, standard on all Lumix models, assures comfortable viewing in virtually all conditions by automatically adjusting the backlighting of LCD as the ambient light level changes.

One key advancement over previous models is the LX3’s superb expandability. Mounting the optional Wide Conversion Lens** brings the maximum wide angle all the way to an incredible 18mm. Other optional equipment such as the ND Filter** and new PL Filter** also broaden image-creating possibilities. The high-end aluminum External Optical Viewfinder provides bright, clear viewing without wearing down the battery. And the optional GN22 Compact Flash mounts to the hot shoe newly added to the LX3. These and other accessories let users build around the LX3 to create a powerful, versatile camera system that can take them as far into photography as they want to go.

This full set of functions draws a distinct line between the LX3 and ordinary compact cameras. The LX3 stands alone as a compact camera whose image-creating capabilities rival even digital SLRs. It’s a camera that gives users the ability to capture beautiful, richly expressive images every time they shoot.

Available in black or silver*** the DMC-LX3 is an excellent choice as a compact partner camera for users who own an SLR. It is also an outstanding long-term camera solution for high-level users who want the best in image quality, operating ease, flexibility and creative freedom.

  It was a busy
morning, about 8:30, when an elderly gentleman in his 80s arrived to
have stitches removed from his thumb. He said he was in a hurry, as he
had an appointment at 9:00 am. I took his vital signs and had him take a
seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would be able to
see him.

  I saw him looking at his watch, and decided, since I was not
busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound. On exam,
it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed
supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound.

  While taking care
of his wound, I asked him if he had another doctor’s appointment this
morning, as he was in such a hurry.The gentleman told me no, that he
needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his
wife.

  I inquired as to her health; he told me that she had been there
for a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer’s Disease. As
we talked, I asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late. He
replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized
him in five years now. I was surprised, and asked him, ‘And you still go
every morning, even though she doesn’t know who you are’? He smiled as he patted my hand and said, ”She doesn’t know me, but I still
know who she is."

I had to hold back tears as he left. I had goose bumps
on my arms and thought,    ‘That is the kind of love I want in my
life’.

True love is neither physical nor romantic. True love is an
acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.

With all the jokes and fun that are in e-mails, sometimes there is one that comes along that has an important message. This one I thought I
could share with you.

The happiest people don’t necessarily have the
best of everything;
they just make the best of everything they
have.

I hope you share this with someone you care about. I just
did.

‘Life isn’t about how to survive the storm but how to dance in the
rain.’

‘Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is
fighting some kind of a battle’.

I am moving on
reaching toward my hopes and dreams
It has taken me far too long
to reach this place, it seems

My fears may try to hold me back
To try and block my way
But with courage and faith in my heart
I will get there come what may

The road will be a long one,
And it may be rocky, too
But when I reach this place in time,
My dreams could all shine through

I am coming nearer to my goals
And my excitement grows
The plans I have made will soon be real
Along with the destiny I chose

Though I have been tossed and turned
in life’s storms
I will surely see a brighter dawn
I’m no longer held back by my fears
I’m finally….Moving On

Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived;

happiness, sadness, knowledge, and all the others, including love.

One day it was announced to all of the feelings

that the island was going to sink to the bottom

of the ocean. So all the feelings prepared

their boats to leave.

Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted

to preserve the island paradise until the last

possible moment. When the island was almost

totally under, love decided it was time to leave.

She began looking for someone to ask for help. Just then

Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked,

"Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?"

Richness answered, "I’m sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold

on my boat and there would be no room for you anywhere."

Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a

beautiful vessel. Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please."

"I can’t help you", Vanity said, "You are

all wet and will damage my beautiful boat."

Next, Love saw Sadness passing. Love said,

"Sadness, please let me go with you."

Sadness answered, "Love, I’m sorry but I just need to be alone

now."

Then, Love saw Happiness. love cried out,

"Happiness, please take me with you."

But Happiness was so over overjoyed

that he didn’t hear Love calling to him.

Love began to cry. Then she heard a voice say,

"Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an elder.

Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that

she forgot to ask the elder his name.

When they arrived on land the

elder went on his way.

Love realized how much she owed the elder.

Love then found Knowledge and asked. "It was Time",

Knowledge answered. "But why did Time help me when no one else would?",

Love asked. Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and

sincerity, answered, "Because only Time is capable of

understanding how great Love is."

Sometimes we close our eyes
and just listen to the echoes to our hearts.

We all fall in love
and there are times when we love so much
that we lose ourselves in our own emotions.

More often than not
we wonder why there are love that grows
and love that grows cold.

We would start to search for answers
and try to find where love has gone wrong.

But in the end we find ourselves, where we started
for we cannot question love when it has its own reasons.

Love will always be as it always has been ….
silent, mysterious and deeply profound.

Many of us believe that love is forever,
that love never dies,
only to be disillusioned in the end
when we find our hands empty,
and our hearts longing.

We mistakenly have looked at love as a need to be fulfilled.

But love is only a gift given to us.

We should not hold it in our hands
for we may never find the strength to let it go
when it decides to leave.

We should only embrace its warmth and glow while it last
and then freely open our arms
when its time to say good bye.

When we fall in love with someone,
we don’t want that feeling to end
for it is everything we are,
everything that we wanted to be.

We pray that love will stay and grow in our hearts.

But, if it doesn’t
then we should never let our lives be taken by it,
for life should not end where heartaches begin.

There is always a reason why we have to move on.

When we have to say goodbye
to the feelings we wanted to stay forever,
let us not wave our hands with a heavy heart.

For love will have to set its wings free
and find the place where it belongs.

We may have lost It
but then again,
when we close our eyes
and listen to the echoes of our hearts,
we will hear that feeling resounding silently forever.

Then we’ll know that it has never left us,
for the good that we have become because of love will always stay.

It will always be there reminding us
that we should be thankful and happy,
Not because we have lost love,
but because, for once in our lives,
that feeling lived in our hearts and made us happy

Here’s to the crazy ones.

          The misfits.

                    The rebels.

                              The troublemakers.

                                        The round pegs in the square holes.

The ones who see things differently.

They’re not fond of rules

          And they have no respect for the status quo.

You can praise them, disagree with them, quote them

          disbelieve them, glorify or vilify them.

About the only thing that you can’t do is ignore them.

Because they change things.

          They invent.          They imagine.          They heal.

          They explore.        They create.             They inspire.

They push the human race forward.

Maybe they have to be crazy.

How else can you stare at an empty canvas and see a work of art?

          Or sit in silence and hear a song that’s never been written?

Or gaze at a red planet and see a laboratory on wheels?

We make tools for these kinds of people.

While some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius.

Because the people who are crazy enough to think that they can

change the world, are the ones who do.

Breaking up is never fun. The end of a relationship means the
beginning of a period of mourning and healing for both people. If the
break up was mutual both people will experience a period of
adjustment where they are getting used to no longer being together.
If the break up was not mutual the person who ended things may be
dealing with guilt and feelings that they may have made a mistake.
The person being broken up with will definitely have to adjust, first
to being rejected and second to life without somebody they still care
for. How do you get through those first few weeks? Here we list eight
essential things everybody must do in the early days of a break up to
let the healing begin.

1. Avoid the former love. Yes, avoid. No, this isn’t being immature.
Seeing your former flame can bring out emotions and may cause you do
to or say something you will regret. In the first few weeks the best
thing you can do for yourself is not be where you know they will be.

2.Talk out your feelings with close friends. Get everything out so
that you won’t hold it inside. Your friends may get sick of hearing
you talk about the situation but you need to let out all your
feelings and thoughts or they may come back to bite you later.

3. Cry if you want to. It’s OK to cry over a loss. Don’t hold back,
let the tears roll just do it in a safe and private place where it is
unlikely to get back to your ex. You don’t want your tears to be used
as a guilt trip. Their purpose is to cleanse you of any pain not make
your lover come back.

4. Let go of mementos. Put away or give away anything and everything
that reminds you of the relationship. Hide them out of sight so they
will be out of mind until you are able to remember the relationship
without longing for it to still be going strong.

5. Don’t slip up and get together with your ex. When you are feeling
sad or missing a relationship it can be very easy to fall back in to
the arms of your ex but DO NOT DO THIS. This will only set you back
and let’s face it, if things ended the relationship wasn’t perfect to
begin with so why would you want to rekindle things?

6. Focus on all the things about your ex that drove you crazy, turned
you off, or that you just plain found annoying. Think about these
things often and replay them in your mind over and over. Dwell on
them. It will make you feel better to remember that your former flame
was not perfect and that there are things you won’t really miss.

7. Think about the mean, cruel or rude things your ex may have done
in your relationship. Really give these things play in your memory.
Remind yourself that somebody who truly cared for you would not have
done such thoughtless things and tell yourself (over and over) that
you are better off without that kind of ego crushing behavior in your
life.

8. Maintain a strict no contact policy and stick with it. Don’t pass
notes through friends. Don’t make any calls. Stay away from instant
messaging or texting on your cell. Just don’t contact your ex until
you are totally and completely sure you no longer want to be with him
or her. It is the only way.

Mending a broken heart is not easy but it can be done. Just stick to
the game plan outlined above and before you know it you’ll be just
fine. Good luck!

Last nite (Feb 13, ‘06), must have been the saddest time in my life. I lost the love of my life because of my lapse in judgement , doubt and inconsistency. I acted 1st before i think, thereby hurting those close to me.

How come I always ended up befriending people who will soon steal the only person who makes me happy? This already happened twice. Next time that I will have a gf, I will make sure that i will only introduce her to time-tested friends, those who I can REALLY TRUST!

My Beh was really hurt and I think I couldnt forgive myself for making her cry that hard.  I know that it will take a very long time before she finally forget that incident, and I WISH that if ever we’re still UNATTACHED after several months, we could REUNITE and fall in love again. I’ve already felt the "Love at 1st Sight" thang , I guess "Falling in Love is Sweeter the 2nd time around" would be a GREAT blessing before the year ends to make up for all the bad things that Ive experienced these past few months. I still believe in Miracles, but Im not that desperate either. I just think that if this will happen, I knew that it would be a better relationship since we both already knew the pitfalls of our 1st relationship.

I just would like to rest for now, though Im pretty sure that Im gonna miss her SO MUCH. Making-up is too late, for now.

Funny to give it some thought but i guess luck wasn’t on my side last week when my K750i, Valentino wallet (w/ 2.5K cash) & watch was stolen last Jan 27 (Fri-7am). The "Dog" wag its unlucky tail on me again when me and my friend was ganged up last Jan 29(Sun-8pm) , wherein his watch and cell was abruptly taken from him at gunpoint.  I guess I should adapt "mega-extra precaution" each time I will go out , for no one knows what may happen next……

Thats why I chose this wallpaper to signify the fear that I had when my life was almost at stake. Fear when u dont know where ur heading to ….. and u just keep on running for ur life since ur not yet sure what would happen to u afterwards…whether u go up or down, that will depend on His judgment….

or there might be no afterlife at all……  Its ur choice, whether u  continue running or Stop, Take a deep Breath ,  Reflect  and Pray! That there might be Peace in ur heart.

Carpe diem!